His will

"So here was the dignity and the health and the freedom of it. I was not responsible to this very first and important step for anyone but me. Just as, except God, no one else can be born or die for you, no one else can believe or choose for anyone else. I knew that like everything and everyone else in the world, I was broken far beyond my ability to repair myself. And others' brokenness was not the issue here. Mine was. For once, as it is for each of us, it was completely and unabashedly about me. About taking care of my business first. Between God and me. No excuses. No distractions. No more lies from a self-proclaimed place of ignorance or justification, white or darkest dark, or otherwise. Paradoxically, once that's squared away. It's not about me."

"No individual by the very state of existence, can avoid life as a form of servitude; it only remains for us to decide, deny, or remain oblivious to, whom or what we serve."

Both of these are excerpts out of Carolyn Weber's memoir titled Surprised By Oxford. A sweet friend recommended it to me last fall. I finished it within a month and the depth of its message still has not left. I knew that this summer would see big things for me, but I had no idea I would go to England; nor anywhere that spoke English for that matter. I don't know what God has planned for me there but I am fully willing to invest my whole heart into the people and my precious time there. The author Carolyn grew up in a hard family but always relied on her intelligence and knowledge of literature and "worldly" things to lead her in life. It wasn't until she left home and went to study at Oxford that she came to meet her Heavenly Father, who was patiently waiting for her to come to Him. Through her perfectly orchestrated word choice and pure genius metaphors, she explains the struggles and delights she found through this transformation in her life. She unfolds her story so honestly and real that it would be hard for anyone not to relate to her. Through her vivid descriptions of conversations of how the gospel rocked her world, it was so clear to me that I had to go. And so here I go.